Intention

Intention is the beginning of everything.



So let's begin this with the intention of finding what's really lost inside me.

So Far

After i decided to ditch the entire ritual and , basically, start all over again and try to empty my soul, i realized something that i still haven't came into conclusion.

1. The Guilt
there's still a guilt, because you change drastically. Religion is something that's so deeply ingrained you cant help but remember. Like all your life you're taught that sky is blue and now you try to figure out that sky isnt just blue... we, you get the point. Im trying to get rid of the guilt, because honestly i cant distinguish whether this guilt is because i have God Particle inside me or simply because i was used to religion.

2. The Emptiness
You have no direction. Like you have to walk and walk and walk and you know that you have no direction because you cant decide yet. I dont know where, how, or why i have to start again.

3. The Realization
You have a clarity, that everything you say or do is simply you and your responsibility alone. Like, you have no attachment about WHY THE FUCK you have to be kind. You just have to be kind, end of story.